You know what. I fucking very pissed right now. Like gathering is at 6.30pm tomorrow. And I hate being out at night because I just hate it okay. Unless it’s some concert. So what are supposed to do at night? Dinner? By the time we get anywhere it’s already like what 7? Then what time am I supposed to go home huh? Okay I’m just one selfish dumbass dumbbell.

Anyway she is trying to convince me that my brother actually cares for me. Look here, I don’t friggin’ care. And I know him all my life, but she only knows him for like what 1 year? Please, for one, I don’t forgive. Two, he calls me a slut and a nerd, which doesn’t make sense at all. Three, I don’t fucking care. If I am supposed to spare a thought for him, who is going to spare a thought for me? I know you’re damn nice and all but please luh, guys are the greatest liar for old time’s sake. And I don’t want to be treated like some kid okay. Like what’s with the ‘when you grow up…’ and all, I’m just younger by a few years, and I have already grown up. Just treat me like an outsider and the relationship will be mutual okay. To tell you the truth, you’re one of the thirty over gfs he had already. Sad but, you are not the first, and neither will you be the last. I’m so sorry but that’s the cold, harsh fact and I know you will never believe me but at least I tried.

Alright I know you care, afraid I will get into some weird trouble in JC. But it’s the same everywhere. It’s same at poly or JC or ITE or IB or overseas. Wherever there’s people, there’s stuff to handle and there’s conflict.

Wth I just wish some people can stay out of my life before it gets screwed. I just want to be left alone some time and I don’t want to talk about sensitive issues because I DON’T FRIGGIN LIKE TO. GEDDIT? Damn why are some people so persistent.

And STOP ASKING. When I’m not at home, I’m at BAND. LIKE DUH DUH DUH. Wtf. Why can’t these people just give me space to breathe and do what I like. Last night mom just asked me not to go for band in the morning and only for night practices. Like wth. She went like crazy when it was her time. It’s seriously none of her business now, and I don’t need her support in what I do in band or in school because all she does is suan. Ask me to go Xjc again, I swear I will retain in J1 three times till I get kicked out of school. Want to try? Wth just leave me alone because you can’t help me. And I don’t even need your help anymore you biased thing. Go and commit your life to your son since he is so good or whatever. I don’t want to be a doctor or a teacher or whatever you want me to okay. Since he has eaten so much of your money ask him to luh. Leave me out of it. Look, if you think you can use money to get me into XJC well think again. I won’t fall for it okay. I’ll go where I want to. So please STFU.